Recently there have been a few issues with Lucy and myself over both some really small issues, and one or two larger ones as well. Apparently after coming back from China I have been a little too dominant in the leadership role which I can understand, but I plainly put it down to trying to get as much work done now as our deadlines are getting closer, so I am pushing people to try and get things done, but also pushing myself to get things done as well. Apparently Lucy has been feeling a lot of tension over a lot of what she has been writing for the game not being used at all, and is causing her not only a great deal of stress but i think she is getting really quite angry about it. The only problem with this is that she doesn't tell anyone about it until it gets to the point where she lashes out. This becomes an issue, when we arent doing anything to change that purely because we dont know how she feels, or that what we are doing is affecting her this way. After checking her blogs this was slightly more apparent, but without communication it is very difficult to know what is going on.
While I was away, Lucy took charge of the group and obviously became more dominant, but now that I am back she has backed off from that and let me take the role. I was unaware at the time that she had been in a leadership role, as i assumed that because everyone was in such a bad space, no one had taken charge and things had gone pear shaped.
I realise that I may not be the perfect leader for the group and I am trying my best not to confuse my own oppinions with that of the groups but at times, like everyone else, i do make mistakes. I find this is a little more common when tutors randomly show up and I feel like I am put on the spot a bit to try and come up with something to say. It just means that i really need to make sure i think a little more about how everyone might be feeling when discussing the group. Again though a key component to this is communication and knowing how everyone feels, if nobody puts things out in the open how am i supposed to make a fair call on that. Im not a mind reader.
I felt at times that Lucy was a little bit immature about how she reacted to some of the decisions that were being made by the group. Not everything someone writes gets used 100% of the time and if it doesnt get used because the majority of the group doesnt like it then it is probably for the best, i felt at times that she would really throw a tantrum when things didnt go entirely her way, i think that at times she forgets that we are working on a group project and we all have goals that we want to accomplish from it.
I have nothing against people stepping up to take a leadership role, in fact i feel i encouraged it fairly well right at the beginning of the project, but in order to be a leader there needs to be good communication with everyone, and you need to be able to make a call that works best for everybody. Communication is really not one of Lucy's strong points. She is however very efficient in terms of time management and organisation, she always draws out timeframes in which things need to be accomplished by. Personally i think she fits alot better into the role of an organiser than that of a leader, purely because i feel that good communication is one of the most important things about taking on that role.
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